Bell, let’s talk

Hey everyone,

I know I’m a day late with “mental health awareness day”. To be honest, I’ve been having a few rough days and needed some time to process my emotions.

I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember. When I was younger I never really understood why I was feeling the way I did but as an adult, it makes sense. It was never anything that was accepted or even talked about like it is today. Do not misunderstand me though, society indeed has come a long way but it has so much more to overcome.

Over 6 years ago, I hit a really hard wall of depression and anxiety when I lost my brother to suicide. It was the most devastating event that has ever occurred in my life and it still pains me so much to this day, that I still find it hard to think about how much I miss him. It still hurts too much and I honestly don’t think that will ever change. It’s difficult for me to be emotionally hurt or feeling really low because my mind wanders off to the thought of my brother and how I would do anything to just call him up to hear his voice or to have him give me one of his giant bear hugs.

It weighs heavy on my heart but I cannot stress enough how important mental health is. It’s grossly overlooked, judged and misunderstood. My best friend made a really great point that put things into perspective for me. Bell’s campaign inspires a lot of people but at the same time it’s flawed in many ways. Mental health should not be recognized only one day a year. Everyone’s illness is more than an advertising campaign and it’s a topic that should be talked about every single day.

My message to anyone who doesn’t understand mental health and why it’s so important… EDUCATE YOURSELF.

My message, to anyone who struggles daily with anxiety or depression, or has lost someone to suicide or have thought dark thoughts. YOU are not alone, YOU matter, YOU are loved, YOU are important.

It’s okay not to be okay sometimes. ❤️

Busy week, busier weekend

Hey everyone!

Hope you all had a great weekend. Usually I work weekends but this time I was blessed enough to have it off.

I have been so busy lately with work and plans that I haven’t had a chance to post for a couple days and I apologize!

My two days off weren’t really relaxing either but it was still well enjoyed! My mum was in her first solo CrossFit competition yesterday and I spent the whole day supporting her and watching everyone compete. Honestly, it was so inspiring. Watching people of all ages, put themselves through that kinda of weight lifting and endurance was unbelievable.

Today I helped my best friend and her boyfriend move into their first apartment together. I’m so happy for them, but more happy that it’s literally right beside me. I don’t think our boyfriends are prepared for how often they are going to come home to us hanging out.

Now to top off the weekend, I’ve just been relaxing, about to make a snack and watch a movie.

How was everyone else’s weekend?

Try something new

Hey everyone!

So I came to this realization today. And every winter (as much as I hate the snow) I always want to try snowboarding, but never actually get around to doing it.

I do have a board from when I was younger and I unfortunately only used it less than a handful of times. I’m pretty sure I can still use it though so all I need is a good board clean, sharpen and wax.

I’m sure I’m going to spend most of the time falling on the booty and eating about half the snow on the mountain just from face planting. At the same time, I like I picture myself really finding this to be my secret talent if you want to call it that. Or even just an undiscovered skill waiting to be exercised.

I guess the beauty of life, is being able to discover these talents and skills that make life that much more exciting. You’ll never know until you try, as cheesy at that sounds.

Do something you don’t wanna do… it may be worth it

Hey everyone!

Quick post for tonight. I don’t believe I wrote one yesterday because I fell asleep so I’ll make sure to post two tomorrow to make up for it!

So my boyfriend was bugging me to go see the new Spider-Man into the spider verse movie for a while. To be honest, I thought it looked lame and I wasn’t interested in seeing it at all.

We had some movie gift cards from Christmas, so I finally agreed to go. All I can say is WOW. I really judged the movie unfairly before seeing it. I was blown away. Now it may not be a movie for everyone, but I loved it. I would go see it again, and that is not something that happens often!

If you’re looking for a good movie to see this week, that is for sure the one you gotta check out!

Ps, Im obsessed with this song thanks to Spider-Man.

Sunflower – Post Malone and Swae Lee,

Bad weather = reading and lots of naps

It’s that time of year where the awful weather is setting in and the last thing you want to do is set a single foot outdoors.

What better reason to curl up in bed or your couch, turn on your fav movie/tv series or read a book! That’s exactly what I’m going to do today.

Not leaving this bed for anything… maybe a smack later though.

Who else is doing the same while this awful weather is sticking around today?

Am I the only one who loves junk food when you’re sick…

Hey everyone!

If you’ve been following my post a day for January, you would have seen mine from yesterday ft. A really goofy puppy. Yesterday I also mentioned how I’ve come down with an awful cold. Well , today has not been much better in terms of sickness.

Now I’ve had a really crappy flu with chills and body aches and all that fun stuff with a touch of nausea but nothing crazy.

While people are sick they tend to lose their appetite, which has been the case for me. Except when I get my appetite back I don’t want a single thing that’s healthy for me.

I want poutine (vegetarian style), and kraft dinner, pizza and about a thousand bagels. I never know or understand why this happens but it’s a blessing and a curse all at the same time. I’m thankful I get an appetite back but I’m trying to eat healthier. I guess a couple days won’t hurt right?

Does this happen to anyone else or is this just me?

Puppy snuggles while sick is the best cure…

Happy Wednesday y’all,

If I’m being honest, today has been a little rough. More like a lot. I somehow am sick for the second time in two weeks. Except so much worse this time.

Luckily I have a really snuggly puppers and kitty and an awesome boyfriend which is helping me get through it. And Tylenol, lots of it.

I do work with the public a lot which probably explains me getting sick so frequently. So I can’t stress enough, wash hands frequently and sanitize often.

For anyone who is also sick or just needs a good smile – here’s a picture of my big Goober snuggling me while sick.

I need to start drinking more water…

Hello everyone!

As I’ve been continuing my little health journey I realized something I was missing. Something that is very important in ones every day life. Drinking water.

Since I stared eating a lot healthier, my cravings for pop get fewer and farther between. When I do cave and pour a glass I feel like absolute garbage afterwards. I guess that’s a good thing right? Before I could easily drink a few cans of Diet Coke a day. (I actually love the taste of Diet Coke)

I definitely need to up my water intake daily. Do you guys drink enough water daily?

Overwhelmed by gratitude

Happy Monday y’all.

Today has been a little busy for me so while I’m cooking my lunch for tomorrow I felt like this is a perfect time for a post!

I’ve been reflecting a lot and I’m overwhelmed with gratitude. I am very lucky for the things I have in my life including my family.

Since I’ve been out on my own and really independent, I’ve always kept a close relationship with my family. Especially my mum and grandma who I call my “gma” or my “Hommie G” and she calls me her “Hommie E”.

They are the type of people who would welcome anyone through their doors with open arms and help out family or a friend in need. They have always been my rock and my guidance through life and they always will be.

Today I was gifted a family vehicle and am so excited and lucky to get a car that doesn’t break down on me! (Knock on wood) Don’t get me wrong, it is not super fabulous and flashy in any way but it gets me from A to B and I personally love it. I am grateful beyond words for how my family has supported and helped me out.

I’ve learned a hard lesson that unfortunate things can happen in a split second and someone is there one minute and the next they are gone. It’s heart breaking and no one who hasn’t gone through it will understand the pain it brings. But everyone moves on with life and you learn to push the sadness aside. If there is one thing that it has taught me, is to really live in the moment and appreciate your family and friends.

Do me a favour today!! If you guys haven’t reached out to your loved ones, do it now. Even if they drive you crazy, just tell them you love them or just to say hello!

Coffee cups half full

Quick post today!

I decided to make a small goal for this month. I think my boyfriend would appreciate this one – stop leaving cups of half full coffee.

Hard to believe a coffee lover such as myself could do such a thing. Well, in the mornings I’m desperate for coffee to bring me back to life that even if I don’t have enough time for a full cup. Some is definitely better than none!

Are you guys big coffee drinkers like me?